Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Daily Meditation

May 17
"Defects"
“We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.”
Step Six
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After taking the Fifth Step, many of us spend some time considering “the exact nature of our wrongs” and the part they’d played in making us who we were.  What would our lives be like without, say, our arrogance?
Sure, arrogance had kept us apart from our fellows, preventing us from enjoying and learning from them.  But arrogance had also served us well, propping up our ego in the face of critically low self-esteem.  What advantage would be gained if our arrogance were removed, and what support would we be left with?
With arrogance gone, we would be one step closer to being restored to our proper place among others.  We would become capable of appreciating their company and their wisdom and their challenges as their equals.  Our support and guidance would come, if we chose, from the care offered us by our Higher Power; “low self-esteem” would cease to be an issue.
One by one, we examined our character defects this way, and found them all defective—after all, that’s why they’re called defects.  And were we entirely ready to have God remove all of them?  Yes.
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Just for today:  I will thoroughly consider all my defects of character to discover whether I am ready to have the God of my understanding remove them.
 
Copyright © 1991-2010 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Daily Meditation

May 12
Living with spiritual experiences
“For meditation to be of value, the results must show in our daily lives.”
Basic Text, p. 47
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In working our program, we are given many indirect indications of a Higher Power’s presence in our lives: the clean feeling that comes to so many of us in taking our Fifth Step; the sense that we are finally on the right track when we make amends; the satisfaction we get from helping another addict.  Meditation, however, occasionally brings us extraordinary indications of God’s presence in our lives.  These experiences do not mean we have become perfect or that we are “cured.”  They are tastes given us of the source of our recovery itself, reminding us of the true nature of the thing we are pursuing in Narcotics Anonymous and encouraging us to continue walking our spiritual path.
Such experiences demonstrate, in no uncertain terms, that we have tapped a Power far greater than our own.  But how do we incorporate that extraordinary Power into our ordinary lives?  Our NA friends, our sponsor, and others in our communities may be more seasoned in spiritual matters than we are.  If we ask, they can help us fit our spiritual experiences into the natural pattern of recovery and spiritual growth.
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Just for today:  I will seek whatever answers I may need to understand my spiritual experiences and incorporate them into my daily life.
 
Copyright © 1991-2010 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Daily Meditation

May 11
Balancing the scales
“A lot of our chief concerns and major difficulties come from our inexperience with living without drugs.  Often when we ask an oldtimer what to do, we are amazed at the simplicity of the answer.”
Basic Text, p. 43
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Finding balance in recovery is quite a bit like sitting down with a set of scales and a pile of sand.  The goal is to have an equal amount of sand on each side of the scales, achieving a balance of weight.
We do the same thing in recovery.  We sit down with the foundation of our clean time and the Twelve Steps, then attempt to add employment, household responsibilities, friends, sponsees, relationships, meetings, and service in equal weights so that the scales balance.  Our first try may throw our personal scales out of kilter.  We may find that, because of our over-involvement in service, we have upset our employer or our family.  But when we try to correct this problem by resigning from NA service altogether, the other side of the scales go out of balance.
We can ask for help from members who have stabilized their scales.  These people are easy to recognize.  They appear serene, composed, and self-assured.  They’ll smile in recognition at our dilemma and share how they slowed down, added only a few grains of sand at a time to either side of the scales, and were rewarded with balance in recovery.
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Just for today:  I seek balance in my life.  Today, I will ask others to share their experience in finding that balance.
 
Copyright © 1991-2010 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Winning or Losing

So in your opinion is Charlie Sheen winning or losing.  If winning I sure as hell don't see how.  He seems to be going downhill pretty fast.  He got his kids taken from him which is probably best for them.  He is sick looking because he is in fact sick.  It looks like he is gonna crash and crash hard.  Like a train out of control he is losing it right in front of us.  For the whole world to see.  Is it possible he is overplaying this and maybe he is not that bad off?  Either way its a messed up situation.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

About Mr. Sheen

If you watch the news or keep up with stories the media is covering you have probably seen Charlie Sheen is all over the place.  There was an interview by one of the  networks with Mr. Sheen and a reporter.  In this interview Charlie is looking ruff and obviously has been on a binge for sometime now.  You can see it in his face and the things he is saying are way out there.  He is obviously a very sick man.  To the untrained eye by the things he was saying he may look like an evil and bad person.  If you have had your own addiction problems or know somebody who has then you know he has a serious problem.  The media covers whatever news gets peoples attention and this story does because he is famous.  So I would like to hear peoples thoughts on this.  Please leave a comment on this with your opinion.  Do you think the media should stay out and stop putting the spotlight on someone who is clearly insane and wrapped up in addiction?  Do you think that it is OK?  Please leave your thoughts and comments.  I would really like to hear what people think.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

American Addict

There are many types of addiction its true, but my experience is with drug addiction.  You can see this problem on the streets of every city in this nation.  You can see it in schools, workplace, and everyday in the news you see something drug related.  A large majority of crimes committed are drug related whether its violence or someone stealing something to get more.  I have been one of those people stealing to try to get more.  You see it in famous people too like the most recently covered is Charlie Sheen.  He did an interview and boy did he look ruff and sound sick.  The things he was saying were just like things you hear from any other addict active in their addiction.  He thinks nothing is wrong and everything bad happening is someone else fault. I have been there before too.  I cant even imagine what it must be like to be a drug addict out of control and at the same time have millions of dollars to blow on whatever you want.  I would probably be dead as extreme as I was in my using.  He may be just as extreme and he may be dead before too long as well.  There is a saying in 12 step programs the roads of addiction lead to jails, institutions, and death.  It lead me to jail which was the best thing for me.  Going to jail gave me a wake up call that was long overdue.  It led me to willingness to change and try something different whether I agree with it or not.  Mr Sheen says being sober bores him and he doesnt agree with the 12 step.  Well no shit I didnt agree with it either.  What I agreed with was taking handfuls of pain killers and smoking crack.  What we agree with in early recovery does not matter.  Leaning on our own understanding and principles is what got all of us into trouble anyway.  I am speaking for myself here I guess, but the same goes for many im sure.  To get clean is the easy part, but to stay that way I am having to do things different and follow direction of a fellow addict who has been clean for years.  Whether I agree with it or find it boring is irrelevant.  It worked for thousands and can work for me too. 

Monday, February 28, 2011

Drug Abuse and Addiction


Many people do not understand why individuals become addicted to drugs or how drugs change the brain to foster compulsive drug abuse. They mistakenly view drug abuse and addiction as strictly a social problem and may characterize those who take drugs as morally weak. One very common belief is that drug abusers should be able to just stop taking drugs if they are only willing to change their behavior. What people often underestimate is the complexity of drug addiction -- that it is a disease that impacts the brain and because of that, stopping drug abuse is not simply a matter of willpower. Through scientific advances we now know much more about how exactly drugs work in the brain, and we also know that drug addiction can be successfully treated to help people stop abusing drugs and resume their productive lives.
Drug abuse and addiction are a major burden to society. Estimates of the total overall costs of substance abuse in the United States -- including health- and crime-related costs as well as losses in productivity -- exceed half a trillion dollars annually. This includes approximately $181 billion for illicit drugs, $168 billion for tobacco, and $185 billion for alcohol. Staggering as these numbers are, however, they do not fully describe the breadth of deleterious public health -- and safety -- implications, which include family disintegration, loss of employment, failure in school, domestic violence, child abuse, and other crimes.

Prevention of Drug Abuse

Drug addiction is a preventable disease. Results from NIDA-funded research have shown that prevention programs that involve families, schools, communities, and the media are effective in reducing drug abuse. Although many events and cultural factors affect drug abuse trends, when youths perceive drug abuse as harmful, they reduce their drug taking. It is necessary, therefore, to help youth and the general public to understand the risks of drug abuse and for teachers, parents, and healthcare professionals to keep sending the message that drug addiction can be prevented if a person never abuses drugs.


What is drug addiction?

Addiction is a chronic, often relapsing brain disease that causes compulsive drug seeking and use despite harmful consequences to the individual who is addicted and to those around them. Drug addiction is a brain disease because the abuse of drugs leads to changes in the structure and function of the brain. Although it is true that for most people the initial decision to take drugs is voluntary, over time the changes in the brain caused by repeated drug abuse can affect a person's self control and ability to make sound decisions, and at the same time send intense impulses to take drugs.
It is because of these changes in the brain that it is so challenging for a person who is addicted to stop abusing drugs. Fortunately, there are treatments that help people to counteract addiction's powerful disruptive effects and regain control. Research shows that combining addiction treatment medications, if available, with behavioral therapy is the best way to ensure success for most patients. Treatment approaches that are tailored to each patient's drug abuse patterns and any co-occurring medical, psychiatric, and social problems can lead to sustained recovery and a life without drug abuse.
Similar to other chronic, relapsing diseases, such as diabetes, asthma, or heart disease, drug addiction can be managed successfully. And, as with other chronic diseases, it is not uncommon for a person to relapse and begin abusing drugs again. Relapse, however, does not signal failure -- rather, it indicates that treatment should be reinstated, adjusted, or that alternate treatment is needed to help the individual regain control and recover.

What happens to your brain when you take drugs?

Drugs are chemicals that tap into the brain's communication system and disrupt the way nerve cells normally send, receive, and process information. There are at least two ways that drugs are able to do this: (1) by imitating the brain's natural chemical messengers, and/or (2) by overstimulating the "reward circuit" of the brain.
Some drugs, such as marijuana and heroin, have a similar structure to chemical messengers, called neurotransmitters, which are naturally produced by the brain. Because of this similarity, these drugs are able to "fool" the brain's receptors and activate nerve cells to send abnormal messages.
Other drugs, such as cocaine or methamphetamine, can cause the nerve cells to release abnormally large amounts of natural neurotransmitters, or prevent the normal recycling of these brain chemicals, which is needed to shut off the signal between neurons. This disruption produces a greatly amplified message that ultimately disrupts normal communication patterns.
Nearly all drugs, directly or indirectly, target the brain's reward system by flooding the circuit with dopamine. Dopamine is a neurotransmitter present in regions of the brain that control movement, emotion, motivation, and feelings of pleasure. The overstimulation of this system, which normally responds to natural behaviors that are linked to survival (eating, spending time with loved ones, etc), produces euphoric effects in response to the drugs. This reaction sets in motion a pattern that "teaches" people to repeat the behavior of abusing drugs.
As a person continues to abuse drugs, the brain adapts to the overwhelming surges in dopamine by producing less dopamine or by reducing the number of dopamine receptors in the reward circuit. As a result, dopamine's impact on the reward circuit is lessened, reducing the abuser's ability to enjoy the drugs and the things that previously brought pleasure. This decrease compels those addicted to drugs to keep abusing drugs in order to attempt to bring their dopamine function back to normal. And, they may now require larger amounts of the drug than they first did to achieve the dopamine high -- an effect known as tolerance.
Long-term abuse causes changes in other brain chemical systems and circuits as well. Glutamate is a neurotransmitter that influences the reward circuit and the ability to learn. When the optimal concentration of glutamate is altered by drug abuse, the brain attempts to compensate, which can impair cognitive function. Drugs of abuse facilitate nonconscious (conditioned) learning, which leads the user to experience uncontrollable cravings when they see a place or person they associate with the drug experience, even when the drug itself is not available. Brain imaging studies of drug-addicted individuals show changes in areas of the brain that are critical to judgment, decisionmaking, learning and memory, and behavior control. Together, these changes can drive an abuser to seek out and take drugs compulsively despite adverse consequences -- in other words, to become addicted to drugs.